Saturday 31 March 2012

安息日的事情

Assalaamu'alaikum wa rahmatullah


I'm sorry that currently my head was messed up and I made few posts in another language. I feel that I can't help my self to always feel low-self esteem especially when being a post-graduate students we are isolated and we are mentally tortured in solitary. I am also very angry with the hostel management, where they placed postgraduate students above the sky and discriminating their own Malaysian students who actually pays them in cash! As for young postgraduate student, I am so stressed with this situation. One problem is that, I have to mingle with weird old guys from Arabia (though I am of Arabian ancestry) and I also don't like to stay with Phd students because they are way too old. I can't do any activity with too old guys. It complicates my character more. I would not complain about this after I finish because it would be of no use talking to management. I won't return to the university anymore, insha Allah. Mum said that I am now diverting from the Path and I am now being kicked further to the worldly side. I cried everyday when mum's word echoing in my ears because she wasn't happy when I returned here. I didn't know why is this happening and I was only an ordinary guy. I wanted to be like others but I can't and always being placed in minority situation be it in religious traditions and worldly matters :'(  

Had already removed the flames from the box. It's difficult when we stay alone because nobody could guard the flames. Don't want it to hurt my Quran.

If talking to undergraduate students or those who never doing postgraduate, they would never understand how it feels. I knew few undergraduate students before who have to do thesis, I know how it feels if they talk about it to me because I can see it from their stressful appearance. It feels like being smashed thousands of times at the head day by day. Perhaps people are looking at me as a weird and strange guy. Some people might think this guy looks unusual in his appearance though they never talk to me about this. I can tell it by the way they look at me and I don't like people staring at me. We have this belief that the 'eyes' could harm the people who are stared at. If wanted to speak, just come close and talk but make sure only alone. Don't worry about how I would react, I will never treat people badly if people have no sin to me. I don't entertain people who come to me through friend and talking to me in a group. It is like Facepuke where we don't like people who we don't know suddenly come to us by another friend and talking to us. I just don't like to know people like this or talking in a group because it brings together 'satan'. It is also annoying when we speak we have to focus on many places... I would rather stay alone if I have to encounter this situation. I wish any brother who knows me and visiting this humble site could understand this : )


I am also apologizing if firstly I do not greet people and people are afraid to come closer to me. Maybe I am traumatized with the experience when I was a young undergraduate student talking to other cocky students like I care whether they are champions in sports, teaching primary school maths candidate teacher, fair skin guy or rich guy in case of cikgu Yusry who asked me why am I greeting him asking "how are you?" (hullo, Asian guys with fair skin are like women and I don't care about people's money, lol), having muscular body (some pathetic people in my previous hostel love to show off their body maybe to get attention *puke*),  having groups of friends (both religious and non-religious groups are the same for me, bunch of show off n mengada-ngada), or etc. That experience actually makes me like I am today.  Maybe I should also make lists of what I had experienced with people, ahahahhaahahahaha........ It seems like fun.

If people treat me like others perhaps I would not be looking different or weird. I began to wear all-black including my skull cap since last week which means I am turning away from society because people are looking at me like a strange guy. I have bad experience with people that make me like that but I never and will never treat people without manner if they talk with me like others had done to me because I don't like to be treated like that. I understood how does it feel and that makes me treat everyone including little child with dignity. I hardly make people lose their face because I care about people dignity like I care about my own dignity. When people don't tell anything that they feel they wanted to tell me too, I will count it as a sign that they are looking down at me and not assuming me as their believer 'brother'.

I don't know what to buy, just buying nonsense books and the white book reflects what I am now thinking, lol

Regarding Friends Around

It makes me thinking that the term 'brother' is just a rhetoric to be proud to people of other faith because it shows the success on persuading people to 'convert' into this and that faith. Maybe it is just to show off, to be proud to others and not because of pure heart for Allah sake. I have no time for this and personally I don't like to persuade people for followers or converting people. If people seriously wanted to establish "love and mercy" among nations, just be committed to it. Don't just talk about it and run away because once we are tested (reminder to myself), hehehe. I am watching and observing people. I am not only observing and watching the changing in myself.

If I still talk with people, it means I love them like my own relatives. If no talking, it means I am not worth to be with them and I was offended because I know I am not an important person that makes people treating me like a trash (poor people are trash, we cannot make friend with rich or fortunate people). Perhaps their status is very high as compared to me, a lowly servant who have nothing to offer in term of material. I am not really good in word and that is why I never speak so much in front of people. But that does not mean I could not phrasing my words. Sometimes people might not understand how I think. It is normal and it happens to everyone I guess.  
       
Yesterday I just bought few books because we've got RM200 voucher for students to buy book. It is apart of government campaign to encourage students to read. Earlier on Thursday, I just bought a Tajweed Quran with Chinese translation for personal use. I actually could not perform worldly jobs in Saturday without any necessity because today is a Holy and Sanctified day for us and strictly reserved for Holy Books recitation which includes Quran. However, I had already violated few laws since I am occupied with worldly matter which is this study that I am forced to finish and I typed my thesis references, haha. It is my fault anyway not of anyone because it was the course that I ticked my application form and because I think of other brother or perhaps friend. I met Charlie again this Friday while withdrawing but I just ignore him. Let him feel how I feel though I don't obviously do that! I always tolerate people but if it is for many times, I can't stand it anymore. We are human-being no robots. If he has other friends, then he should go and spend time with them. Not calling me while he is lonely because I am always alone. I also have my Friend and I feel guilty to forget Him for other friends who could never benefit me in the world or hereafter. From what I discussed with sister Ong regarding this issue, she said to me: "人是這樣的, 一個人的時就和你很好, 當他有了其他的朋友, 覺得你沒用了, 就不理你了, 有時候我們找朋友要很小心啊..." So, it means we have to be careful in searching friends. Actually I had been very cautious but I still being tricked like what I had experience with Charlie, with Jantr, and etc... I am tired of this same situation. Maybe I should accept the fact that we have to be isolated from around like our father, Ibrahim a.s and his children. Only those who experienced this will understood how father Ibrahim a.s feels.  

Sanctification of the day begin since after Friday prayer where I will take bath and cleaning my room. I will have to lit up two flames few minutes before Maghrib prayer service and turn off the electricity beside reciting personal prayers to welcome the day. I also put on the skull cap to remind myself to keep the covenant and promises. This is only our personal tradition. I had gradually abandon these personal traditions but after other brothers here making me feeling low-self esteem, I started it again because I am not their 'brother' in faith.    

I still have other brothers around me whom are invisible. They are with me always and in Saturday, two of them will be visiting me. My eyes could not see them. My ears could not listen to them. But they are talking to me and praying to with the amin closing of prayers.

Sealed with prayers for mercy, peace, and love, amin!


Thursday 29 March 2012

南方回族

Assalamu'alaikum wa rahmatullah

已經兩天挨感冒,咳嗽很夠力。沒關係的,真主愛我所以讓我不舒服一點。這幾天對我非常苦難的了。我今天也不出席言課,沒能力了, 我不管老師將給我通告的封信啦。我從個學士生不怕老師而是我罵他們的如果我不滿意他們。我們的態度應忠實的對嘛?! 有時侯老師也搞錯的。沒曾經搞錯過只是真主我們的天。

沒有力打字的了,我剛吃感冒的藥。我們來看我們的兄弟在泰國吧。他們活式樣是怎樣的呢?我們南方回教徒當然從雲南省還是廣東省祖籍的。有一些從福建省的泉州市。戰爭時侯,南方回教徒也跑去緬甸還是泰國。幾個人也跑來吉蘭州還是吉打州然後給嫁
那裡的阿拉伯人還是本地的貴族。我把我們兄弟的些照片放這裡所以人們就知道我們存在的。

雲南回族 - 泰國

 泰國雲南回族

雲南的男子在念雅辛章,馬來人也是念這個以星期四的晚上 - CPA Media

雲南回族小孩子 - Jim Goodman, CPA Media

王和清寺 - 成新 (Chiangmai)

 雲南族小孩聊天在王和清寺

 泰國雲南人清真的咖厘面 - Eating Asia

雲南族的阿姨, 泰國 - Ghezine


讚美真主, 阿敏!

Sunday 25 March 2012

今天不是太素

Assalaamu'laikum wa rahmatullah


朝晨遲起床做禮拜... 我對自己很失望幾個月睡不能关目, 我為論文太壓力。早上一太陽出來就不發音下樓往到禮拜室懺悔我的罪對真主, 我已經多次罪對真主和自然界的了 

今天沒何有意思的事變, 我只走路去樂購找午餐。肚子不是太餓,我在壓力的時候絕對不可以吃飯的。食物部分裡面往來往去還不懂要吃什麼啦結果我買一盒壽司吃一併綠茶喝。不是太素啦, 我已經違反法教的忌諱不吃無鱗的魚。我都不清楚如果我可不可以吃烏賊呀。只希望真主了解我啦。我沒有同伴陪我來也是我不可以丟錢買貴的東西。如果跟朋友我就給他們對我非法的東西。吃壽司我就想念去玩在大日本啦。那個時候還沒真的懺悔, 哈哈。好久不吃這個的... 之前跟馬來人朋友們只去泰國人的餐館還是嘛嘛的地方。嘛嘛的地方又辣味不好吃的咧而且他們煮的東西不清潔。我吃他們的飯一樣吃豬肉還是非法的東西啦。想吃非法的東西我更好去找我們華人的餐館還是吃日本人的食物。

剛才晚上我先買罐頭飲料和漢堡吃在阿曼宿舍。然後去清寺跟伊末目婚禮。清寺裡修行閱讀古蘭經心中念真主安慰一點了。看過回族兄弟那邊可是我害羞打招呼他。我不要領別人來臨。我在清寺未端那邊修行我們希伯來尼傳統不理人的了。我最不喜歡人們問我是否我是個華人還是馬來人啊。我這個穆斯林啊... 如果我回答我是個希伯來人還是猶太人是怎樣呢?人們將會打死我呢?丟石呢?

讚美真主, 阿敏!

Thursday 22 March 2012

Curing the Heart: 'Uzlah

Assalaamu'alaikum wa rahmatullah


A very blessed Friday. I just read some portions of the small treatise by Muhammad Afif bin Yahya of Perlis. I don't put his name like al-Barlisi because it is not a necessity. I am aware that Perlis king is a Sayyid of Southern Arabia descent but I don't really like everything to be Arabized. If people wanted to be affiliated with the native place, then just use the native name without the Arabic al- article. The title is coincidentally the same with another old book but the treatise is much simpler in modern Malay.

What does 'uzlah means? It simply means separating ourselves from the society. This is what low-self integration means if people looking it through modern psychological studies. A brother in musalla in our previous semesters had encouraged to me to join people. He was not wrong that I was not friendly. Yea, I know I wasn't friendly but I was practicing the sunnah of prophet Muhammad s.a.w and prophet Abraham a.s. Prophet Muhammad s.a.w had performed 'uzlah before the prophethood seal and Revelation reached him in the Hiraa' cave in Holy Mecca. I now would like to know how brothers and sisters view on sunnah? Is it just from what has been written only in Hadiths or from the whole traditions in the Holy Quran, the Hadiths, from the History of Prophethood, from the Morality of Prophet, and from the Qisaas al-Anbiyaa (prophets' narrations)? No need to answer here. Just answer it with our selves.

Brief Story about 'Uzlah

The more extensive meaning of 'uzlah is no empty chit chatting and keeping the silence while with the people around. Says Imam al-Ghazali rahimahullah: "Apart of the obstructions for us to perform worship to Allah are creatures. Most of fellow creatures will make us turn away from worship and instill confusion in our heart. It is like in the narrations of a scholar where there were a group of men practicing archery. Among this group of men, one of them sitting alone far from his 'friends'. He then approached the guy to talk with him. But the guy said, it is better for you to remember Allah rather than talking with me. Then he asked the guy, but you are alone and separated from your friends! He answered, no... I am not alone! I am with my Lord. There are two angels accompanying me at my left and right sides. The scholar further asked: "Who will eventually win among them? He said, those who were forgiven by the Lord. He then asked the guy, where is the way to reach that? The guy pointed his fingers showing the Heaven. Then the guy stand up from his sitting and walking while saying, dear Lord, most of creatures are making me turning away from You!"  

Regarding Talking too Much and Speech

Says Umar al-Khattab radi Allahu 'anhu: "Whoever laugh a lot, his authority and prestige will be less. Whoever looking at other fellow human as unimportant, thus he will receive insults.Whoever that is so into something, he will be known as a specialist. Whoever talks a lot, he will have more faults. Whoever have many faults and errors, he will be a person who has less shameful feeling. Whoever with less shameful feeling will have less obedience to Allah. A person with less obedience to Allah will a have a dead heart.

A person who talks to much will be exposed to errors and flaws

Says our noble prophet Muhammad s.a.w: "Indeed, in the Resurrection Day, a person who has the heaviest sin is a person who says a lot of feckless words which never benefit him." (Narrated by Ibnu Nasar)

This part remind me of my previous lessons that I had learned in the Eight Middle Path taught by lord Buddha Gautama and I could clearly remember this since I wake up at four in the morning after taking bath without anyone notice me when I was 15 years old and recite everything that I memorized in Bali and Malay also performing prostrations while imagining emptiness in my mind. It's in the middle part of the three parts of chediya (pagoda) diagram known as seela (ethics) and I recited it as samma wacha which means right speech. This one is also mentioned by lord Buddha in Panchasila when he advised Muchalinda Naga who was a dragon/cobra snake incarnation and it sounds in Bali like musawada werramanni sikhapadam samaadiyaami which means I undertake the precept to refuse from false speech. Further, Gautama Buddha was also known as Sakya Munni. It means a person who keeps his silence and observe from the Sakya tribe. Today, people only translate Munni as a "little, clan, tribal" prophet but the real meaning is a person who keeps his silence.  

Wisdom of Silence

Reported by Anas may Allah be pleased with him: "Prophet Muhammad s.a.w says: 'Silence is a Wisdom and a Virtue. Only a minority of people are capable to do that."

Says Abul Qasim al-Qushayri: "Silence whenever is necessary is a noble thing. Muhammad s.a.w has taught people to guard their words and making one self familiar with silence if it brings benefit. Silence when it is not necessary to be silent is a disgraceful thing. For example keeping the silence when something is wrong and refrain to tell the truth. This kind of silent person is known as a "mute demon"." 

Over-Socializing

I don't think that I am lack of socializing in term of speaking. Yea, sometimes I have problem to speak with people but that is because I am thinking which level should I suit the counter-speakers level of speech. I guess I am just a secretive person and I don't like to be revealed to a multitude of people. Less people know me, then my attention could be directed easily to the people that I know. I don't like people to see my practices or my religious rituals because it makes me feel uncomfortable. I don't think like majority of people and yes my head is a bit complex. 

Some people said I am not an easy person to be read because I would react differently from what people expected to react. I love to talk with people but if I see there is no use for me to talk I would just keep my silence and keeping my distance. Most of all I can talk like normal people according to level. I even could talk about things which are not-related to religious talk if a person feels not comfortable with it like in the case of my ex-colleague, Amir. 

If a kid talking to me, then I will treat a kid like a kid but still with respect. If an elderly talk to me, I will treat him like and elder person. I treat everyone equally but sometimes it is also according to the level of their thought and thinking. Not based on physical body because a person with a big body does not mean that he or she thinks like a grown up man or woman. I don't normally show my emotion to people. I was taught to keep my patience until it is unbearable then maybe the emotion would burst out but it is a rare case. I only burst out like angry when I was 15 at that time I was at religious secondary school where my classmates trying to bully me because they always see me alone and different from others who would be dying to join them. Maybe they thought I was an easy prey but it ends up that I almost hit their head with science class apparatus but before the stuff hit their head I get my consciousness and I just put the thing down and walk away. This is why I always feel sympathy to those kids who are bullied in school or madrasah. This experience is just rampant and everywhere. It happens to others also. I just put it here to make it easier to apply in everyday life by other brothers and sisters. 

Regarding over-socializing, scholars of Islam mentions that it will bring chronic diseases and the root of disasters and evil. Sometimes it grabs away the grace that already possessed by one self. It brings enmity and hatred sunken in the heart will cause physical diseases. These makes the "heart and soul" become rotten and careless in remembering Allah.

Says a scholar: "Indeed words in the heart are constructed by the speech and made by tongue articulation".

Says Muhammad s.a.w: "Those who have faith in the God and the Hereafter, thus they only speak good things or else they would keep their silence".  

Muhammad s.a.w further says: "You will be in peace as long as you keep your silence. But when you begin to speak, your speeches will be recorded whether it is good speeches or evil speeches."    

Anas bin Malik radi Allahu 'anhu says: "Act with noble morality and keep your silence as possible as you can. By the One who holds my soul, a person who decorates himself or herself with these are among beautiful people"

Ibrahim bin Adham also says: "I made friends with ascetic at the mountainous area in Lebanon. They advised me when I am about to enter the society with four advices which are 1) who eats a lot will never feel the sweetness and the grace of worship 2) whoever sleep a lot will never receive blessings of life 3) whoever hoping for the pleasure of human, will have any hope on Lord's pleasure 4) whoever talks too much on less beneficial things will receive evil endings and becomes an apostate."  

I wish that the Lord is pleased with brothers and sisters in faith and wishing that He helps us to be obedient and grateful slaves and servants may He be pleased with everyone.

Sealed with prayers for mercy, peace, and love, amin!

Nothing... I am Just Low...

Assalaamu'alaikum wa rahmatullah


Nothing to talk about, dear Lord. I feel quite low... The story about Adi Shankarachariya emerged in my mind on how he had confronted the swapakah (outcaste, untouchable). Shankara is an Orthodox Brahmin priest in the 8th century Southern India state of Kerala. Unfortunately, this is about Hindus. I am sorry if I am a Muslim talking about a Hindu priestly caste. I didn't mean to talk anything bad about others or to offend others. Instead I respect the Brahmins according to their duty and I will not talk in extensive about Advaita philosophy that I learned in some gap before I was registered as a humble undergraduate student in Penang Island.

Are We Judging or Looking at Something with Physical Eyes? Where are Our Inner Eyes?

He had asked the swapakah and four dogs to move aside and avoid their group while walking from the ritual cleansing place in Banares to a temple. The swapakah then asked him a question: "Do you want me to move my body made of flesh or my spiritual self?" The Brahmin immediately understood this and he prostrated himself in front of the untouchable. This question actually consists philosophical meanings. It is about whether we are judging a person by his appearance or by his inner self? Are we making friend with others because of their looking? Their nationality? Their ethnicity? Their knowledge or skill? Because they possess things that can help us like motorbikes, cars, vehicles? 

Experience

So any brother who knows me and monitoring this side, these are among my experience. I know maybe some of you had encountered these too. Maybe you encountered these with me or with others. If you encountered these with me, firstly I would like to sincerely apologize to all of you. I made this publicly as to show to you I am sincere and I am not ashamed to apologize even if you demand it in front of me now. I don't mind to apologize, bowing to you regardless whether you are younger or older than me and reflecting on myself. We must keep on the muhasabah (reflection) on ourselves always and everyday.

Sometimes when I mingle with people in musallas or masjids, I always wonder whether I am in the place of these Brahmins or actually a swapakah? I do not have courage to talk with people after I listen to them or looking at them or maybe I am afraid that I will scare them away. I know I have no extensive knowledge about Islamic religion or tradition though I am learning them now from the patches that I have in my head after my reversion despite of being occupied with this life. I am not an obvious practitioner of the path. Sometimes I try to remind myself through friends or brothers. I am also feeling afraid that I might be annoying but I closed my eyes for the benefit of the world. When I invited some of them to come to my place to talk to me about whatever they wanted to say, they just keep their silence but on the other side they are eager to come closer to me. 

The worse one that I had encountered when I was a degree student. I greeted a teacher candidate known as Yusri and asking him how he feels today? Just to be friendly at the TV place. This guy is from Langkawi and he just answered me with a question... Why are you asking me? It is not like we know each other only that day but I know him for about a year and when I try to break the silence I get this answer (actually another question in reply) : ) After that incident, I never greet people anymore but waiting for people to greet me. I also lowered my gaze down because I don't want to see people's face and having my perceptions working while they could be harmful.

The second incident, as an example, while with Charlie. He is older by two years than me. Now I am 26 years old and he is about 29 years old. He was my junior in the previous hostel though older than me. He was the one who greeted me while he saw me alone walking here and there without noticing people at my previous hostel. Last semesters, he asked me to accompany him to Bukit Jambul. In the beginning he just said that he wanted to see some printer because his printer does not work. When we arrived there with his motorbike, I realized that actually he wanted me to hold the printer that he is going to buy because he has no friend to help him. I don't mind to help or even crucified for my friends, moreover if it is my brother in faith, Muslims. But why not being honest with me? You only use me when you are alone but when you have friends you just leave a 'loyal' friend behind. It's not only once but few times I was tricked like this by friends. I came back here last time because I feel pity for Charlie maybe he would be alone. I should just tear the invitation for master when I received that. But because of a friend, a brother in faith that I just known in my last year I came back. It is like I am stepping inside the hell for a brother and a friend while I could go to paradise. Now I am in hell because of friend. I messaged him early this semester asking about language classes schedule which is important for me to be graduated but he replied me not. So I decided to delete his number. It's not once that I had been treated like this. Many times... He text me last week, but I do not reply anymore. I just said I could barely remember you, I am sorry for my nervous system breakdown. I observe people too and not only looking at their physical, the important part for me is the spirit and soul. I don't make friend with physical bodies but with spiritual ones.

Another incident was when I stayed with brother Zaidi during my undergraduate second year. In the beginning I had severely tested him with my bad attitude. I did kicked his clothes and the mess that he made on the floor but I actually testing him his patience and also teaching him to keep his cloth on the hanger or placing them in the pail as it would be unclean if people stepped on his clothes on the floor. Then I never talked with him in the room in the beginning but I do observed him. Only when I am sure that he is a "suitable" guy to talk that I began to greet him. I do everything step by step and not in rush. But few times he refused me when I wanted to treat him for respect so I just sleep down the floor to apologize to him every night until I finished the semesters. We have two beds in the shared room, but I purposely sleep on the floor to apologize to him maybe he could also kick me as to repay what I did to his clothes. Maybe I did wronged him in that way that made him refused to befriend me or assuming me as a brother. When I encountered these kind of incidents, I would be thinking maybe I had wronged the people around until they do not even accept my offerings to them.

Let me tell everyone something, though we are not pure Arabs but our customs apart of them is that we can't accept when people refuse our services or offerings that we sincerely offer. Just the same like those counterparts in Arabia. It is considered as rude and we would feel so ashamed, so sad, and sinful until we feel like tearing our own face. Personally it is o.k for me if whatever services or offers that I sincerely offer to them to be dumped behind me or given to others but they first need to receive it though they don't like it. It is just to make not me feel 丟臉 (humiliated) and disgraced in front of the Lord. That is why I never refuse what people give to me though it's just a piece of hair because it is to keep the dignity and the face of the giver to us beside showing them our appreciation. The same thing applies to me. I know Eastern culture is different where we do not burden people. I am also accustomed and well-understood about these because I am raised in Eastern part of the world and born here. I live my 26 years of life in Malaysia. A country with people of different ethnicity and various vernacular educational system... Malays, Chinese, Indian, Thai, Natives, non-Native migrants such as Javanese, Minangs, Achehnese from Indonesian islands and etc. I am also aware about religions around me and I had once was dipped into the religion of natives of South East Asia: Buddhism.

Maybe I am not a good brother for them, maybe scary and weird. So, perhaps I should avoid them and apologize to them like the swapakah for crossing the path of their life. I didn't mean to be like this. Yea, I was an infidel, a lost soul. Once a kafir unlike other Muslims who never question their faith since they were born in Muslim family and it's their culture and traditions that they are proud of telling non-Muslims that you people will be burn in hell unlike us who are noble and holy. I realize about this.

My Personal Thinking

When I didn't talk with people, there would be some people come to me and saying come on join everyone be friendly with everyone. But when I try to be friendly I just receive pain in the chest. Maybe it's a destiny that I should remain alone nor keeping any contact with people. This is a test from Allah and I should remember whatever I am doing including being friendly to people is for Allah's sake and not for myself. There are tests coming and I am also facing it. We just face it with perseverance, insha Allah.

Praising Lord time........ Allahumma salli 'alaa Muhammad wa 'alaa aali Muhammad...

Sealed with prayers for mercy, peace, and love, amin!   


Saturday 17 March 2012

Low Social Integration

Assalaamu'alaikum wa rahmatullah

This video is a nice video but these guys are from a Christian organization about being a single male Protestant. I think now I am facing this problem too as a loner. I could only be friend with loners, hehe.



Among the content of the video...

1. Talk about your problem to someone, brothers, sisters
2. Head on with emotion, face emotions
3. Don't follow stereotype people put you in
4. Everybody will face this problem
5. Make some friends be social
6. No matter what problem we have, stay beautiful

Sometimes I do contacting Christian organizations like the Catholic, Protestant or Orthodox center and talking with them other than talking with Azren and other non-Muslim friends. I can't really talk with fellow brothers and sisters because I am already an ordinary Muslim and people only preach to people that they look as special. There is no need to listen to others problem if we can't help to solve them. Actually no need to help to solve others' problem but just be listeners. That is what I always do to my family members and also to some friends. I just listen and I only give my hand if I can help. 

Condolence

I'm so sad after listening to the news that Baba Shenouda III (head of Egyptian Jacobite Church) passed away... R.I.P baba. I just returned home yesterday trying to finish up the thesis. Maybe I'll skip the class until Wednesday since we need to rush before April.

Sealed with prayers for mercy, peace, and love, amin!

Thursday 15 March 2012

等死


我花了我的一整生命,等待死亡
我為他的計劃,我希望他,我夢見他
當我老了,住我的生活
自己反鎖在此塔扔掉的關鍵
我祈禱死亡,這樣我就可以停止等待
我的頭髮變得灰色,我的骨頭變弱
死亡潛藏黑暗的陰影
但他仍然不會來
然後我決定把我自己的生活,而不是
由於死亡是不是還跟我來
我會來找他
我從我的塔跳下降落以下
但我覺得無痛苦,從致命的
落下
我回到我的塔再次嘗試
我肯定有做錯
但是當我到達塔頂,我發現我的錯誤
一具骷髏坐在我的老搖椅
我的皮膚和靈魂離開了久前
我花了這麼多時間,等待死亡
在年底,我錯過了他的訪問

- Silent Dreams

Serabut: Is There a Silver Lining behind the Cloud?

Assalaamu'alaikum wa rahmatullah



In the Name of Allah the Most Compassionate the Most Merciful 1 Praise be only to Allah the Lord of the Universe 2 The Most Compassionate the Most Merciful 3 King of the Day of the Law 4 You are the One that we worship and You are the One that we follow 5 Show us the straight Path 6 The Path which is agreed by You 7 Not the paths which bring Your wrath and not the path of those who are deviated 8

The title describes what happened to me :'( Ya Allah please guide me with ruhul qudus and Your word... I am facing many problems in a time. Everyone must face the tests and problems in life no one could escape them. Tests making us strong but please don't give me tests that I can't bear, ya Allah... Nobody love nor care about me in this world but they only care about themselves. People saying many things to me because of things they don't understand and in the same time they come to me for counsels. I try to reconcile with people while they are thinking evil about each others. I feel there is no need for such "thinking". It brings us no benefit but yet people love to make the world as the first hell before the other hell to come. It's not only tormenting them but screeching others. I only have You, ya Allah. Please help liberate me from this suffocating moment through Your Wisdom and Mercy. I wanted to terminate everything, give me the chance ya Allah.

We beg You dear Lord, with Your Strength and Greatness to untie our knotted fate. Accept our remembrance, elevate and purify us, You are the Most Awesome One. Please Heroic One, those who pursue Your uniqueness help and guard them as the pupil of an eye. Bless them purify them, may Your righteousness always reward them. Powerful and Holy One in goodness leading Your congregations. Unique and Proud One, listen to us, may we remember Your Holiness. Accept our cries and hear our pleas, Your are the Most Knowledgeable on whatever is hidden. - Blessed be the Name the Possessor of the Kingdom Forever, amin.

Sealed with prayers for mercy, peace, and love, amin!

Wednesday 14 March 2012

The End Justifies the Means

Assalaamu'alaikum wa rahmatullah

 Sacred Mystery: Bridgeman Art Library

I can't really sleep though feeling so exhausted. Just wanted to share something which I read from the Telegraph in the section of Religious Affairs (March 2, 2012). It is under the topic of Jesus may Have been a Hermaphrodite. This statement was made by a Feminist theologian, Dr. Susannah Cornwall of the Manchester University's Lincoln Theological Institute in her blog. 

She claimed that it is "simply a best guess" that Jesus Christ was male. Her comments actually raised fury in some parts of British society and it was published in response to the debate about women bishops in the Church of England. She made a research under the topic of "Intersex & Ontology: A Response to the Church, Women Bishops and Provision" where there was an argument that it is not possible to know "with any certainty" that Jesus did not suffer from an intersex condition with both male and female organs. She further says that it is not possible to assert with any degree of certainty that Jesus was as we now define maleness.  

She argues that there is no way of knowing for sure Jesus didn't have one of the intersex conditions which would give him a body which appeared externally to be unremarkably male, but which might nonetheless have had some hidden female physical features. She posed the arguments that Jesus is not recorded to have had children and it made his gender status "even more uncertain". She mentions more that we cannot know for sure that Jesus was male since we do not have a body to examine and analyze so it could only be that Jesus' masculine gender role, rather than his male sex, is having to bear the weight of all this authority. 

What I Think

Jesus Christ is a prophet of Islam and I have faith in him as an appointed messenger of the Lord to mankind before the seal of prophethood was sent. Many Europeans or Americans might not aware about this fact because they only know about a focused figure in Islam which is prophet Muhammad s.a.w. Prophet Muhammad s.a.w is a seal of the prophethood to mankind from Semites' area while Jesus Christ is the portal to the Resurrection. If the Church of England feels insinuated by this blasphemous claim of the feminist theologian, I feel it more because this noble prophet of the God has always to bear the insults made by ignorant who claim themselves as academicians. 

When reading this article, I doubt on how these people being qualified to be teachers in institutions? Regarding feminism, its not only the adherents of the Church of England who brought these blasphemy toward a holy prophet or their "god" but in Muslim society ourselves we have these kind of people. I am not against any women organization or movement but we need to understand one thing. The Lord created us with different functions. Women function like women while men function like men. He created everything with its own function and we have varieties in ourselves. It goes to the role too.  I had discussions with converts to Islam from Europe, from Germany and also with non-Muslims and we talked about many sensitive issues including about women role in religious institutions and also about genders. I could say that I am quite open even when I listened to people insulting noble prophets because I assume them as talking without using their mind but some of the people who claim themselves as religious could talk something like this and claiming this as academic, it makes me feel funny, lol...

Last time I helped my friend to type the interview for feminist project in our institution about the role of women as jurists in Shari'a court in Penang. The Shari'a judge who was interviewed said that women are not prohibited from being a jurist but we are talking about the faith in which about the responsibility burden where a jurist must bear on his or her shoulders. He told the interviewers about some cases that he had to face where people anathematized him when they are not satisfied with the result and it is also psychologically influencing their life. It sparks up in my mind though as a non-Christian that just because she wants to justify women bishops in her church, she brought this stupid argument in academic names, ahahahaha. This is a disgrace toward academics and I feel offended because I have to make a very detailed research under the supervision of a feminist lecturer while this lady could just slip by and getting a doctorate with arguments like this. It's not wrong to be a feminist, masculinist, or transvestitist we wanted to be but I don't think that this is necessary. 

The general argument is like any historical figure be it man or woman who did not have children or display his or her genitalia may have been a hermaphrodite. Maybe after this, those guys who are not married and have no children because they have no sexual history with different gender could be classified as hermaphrodite through a guess by "academicians".  This is pathetic and it is a topic of an academic paper... I think I would love to study about snails, lolllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll. 

Lord Allah please bless noble prophet Jesus a.s wherever he is, I am waiting for His second coming. Prayer for blessings upon prophets and messengers of Allah. Our respect to His noble and holy prophets and messengers from sage Adam a.s to Muhammad s.a.w. 

Prayers for mercy, peace, and love, amin!

Faith in the Resurrection

Assalaamu'alaikum wa rahmatullah


Somehow I can't wait the Yawm al-Qiyamah (the Day of Resurrection). We don't know when but our noble prophet said that it's so close during his living time. What about now yah? I am not practising the tenets of the path fully yet I still can't wait it to come. I think maybe I don't see that this earthly life matter anymore. I just want to return to Him.

Mum had just cried at the phone last night. Urm, yeah I am facing some problems. I feel so guilty for not telling her about my third sister's wedding with brother-in-law and now she knows about that through little sister. Whether the guy is not of our family member is not the issue anymore, but when we don't get the blessings of parents then it is actually something that could be harmful to parents. Our family members are the followers of Imam Shafi'ie school of jurisprudence except me and elders are looking at their children's life partner criteria based on the sunnah tradition too. Although almost all of the native here were Islamisized through our people's missions but not all are practising Muslims. We have to be careful and discreet in our mixing with people not to be arrogant but to save our faith in Allah through prophethood messages. Our life had already being ruined by environment around and life pressures so we try to minimize the destruction by trying to be in accordance to elders' traditions but young people could not understand it. I actually don't understand how people think. I mean things like marriage is not the matter to play or we just use the sunnah teachings to make what is wrong becomes right.  

I think when people say that they are believers, but actually they are non-believers and this really makes me feel worried especially when it comes to myself. Because the tenets of the faith is not well-rooted or bringing impacts in our heart. They are just "hearsays" and we can't see them with our physical eyes. For example paradise and hell. We just listen about them but we didn't reach the state of paradise and hell yet. We listened about Yawm al-Qiyamah about the Resurrection through prophecies of noble prophets appointed by Allah. If for the Christian friends, they were taught about the Resurrection through Marono 'Yishoa' Mshikha (our lord Jesus Christ), and it is mentioned even in their faith declaration as I always listen this in churches during special events. How does this influence our life? 

I feel so sad when I listened to mum cried. Though I am not an obedient child but I never disobey her if she asked me to do things like following her to masjids after my repentance. Actually I wasn't really a rebellious child and I began to fast since I was three years old. I followed elders to majlis (religious occasions) without being accompanied by dad and in some part of my life I was deflected because of the fitnah (tests) on faith which comes through environment around. I wasn't taught by my dad when I was a child to fast or pray. I just feel I wanted to do all of those things. I recited prophets' life and I tried to live like them. I still remember some parts of stories like how prophet Muhammad s.a.w was cleansed by two angels during his stay with Halimat as-Sa'adiyya. I still remember how he feels lonely in his society where they do not live in accordance to ancestors' (prophet Abraham and Isma'el a.h.m.s) tradition but choosing idolatry and associating Allah with worldly materials. I am experiencing this lonely feeling too and I feel myself filthy day by day because of this worldly environment. I know there are people who feels like me around but we just don't see each other yet. But if we have time and chance insha Allah we will see each other.

When I think about now I am stuck in problems, I feel so weak and I only could wait to cry to Allah behind the walls when people leaving behind prayer places. I can't cry in front of others or else they will mistaken me as losing my mind. I don't know where to find counselors  though we have the department for student affairs here. I know what counselors will say to me and it is of no use to talk with people. I have classmates and some not so close friends in my course but I can't talk with them due to that we are "not close". I only have Allah who is close to me. I just cry alone and telling everything to Allah, talking to His angels to please pray for my safety during Resurrection. 

Just be strong, recite Quran and pray to Allah without stop. Brothers of the past really help me since their stories are recorded by His Word and I could recite them when I am alone. Anyhow, brothers and sisters may come and dump anything that worries, bringing anxieties to you, or simply making me your trash bin. I am open to this because I become a place for my sisters, my mum, and my dad to talk anything though they never really care about me, especially my sister lah because when you have other men in your life you will forget everything including your parents, your dad, your brothers who will be responsible for your sins in the hereafter in front of Allah. You treat your men like "gods" and if those "gods" really obeying the Lord then it is ok but if not then your dad and brothers will have to bear the destruction because of you.

Marriage is sunnah... Yes I will never deny this. It is a sunnah but what is your purpose and intention to marry a man or a woman? Is it because you love his or her physical, you need someone to love you or loving someone, following trends because it is the trend to get marry and not being labeled as lesbos or gays, because you can't control your lusts and etc? Check the sunnah and what obliged a person to get marry through sunnah beside simply saying you are building this masjid and that masjid because you listen to others saying like that. I had seen many people getting marry very early at the age before maturity around 18 years old for guy and 17 years old for girls and how they later divorcing because they realized that is not what they wanted to. What happened to His Wrath? People only take some part that they want and leaving behind what they don't want.

If people say to me, because you need a son or daughter to inherit you... I will just answer with two questions: "How long this world will last and how deep is your faith toward Resurrection?" lol : )

Anyhow just an experience of a guy, a philosophy from a failed guy... Just treat this like a novel or a movie being formatted in writings but it is happening and not from imagination, hahaha.

Sealed with prayers for mercy, peace, and love, amin!

No Adhan?

Assalaamu'alaikum wa rahmatullah


Diary

Hurmmm.... Few weeks going thru and sometimes I can't listen adhan in our hostel. Maybe I need to exercise my responsibility to call for prayer for the benefit of brothers who are fasting even if they don't join congregational services. In fact, I also have no strength to walk to masjid because it's very far and I have to prepare earlier than when I was inside the campus since I am on feet. I actually tried several times to walk my self to masjid. I think I hurt my foot and joints while walking. My back is also aching for sitting too long looking at computer. The thesis must be continued without stop because this April is very close. I need to get the approval of lecturers and supervisor to print out the thesis, stamping it and they are very busy people.

Surah Kahfi and Iman

I read the surat al-Kahfi again and I feel so impressed to those meditating young sleeping men in the cave where they tried to avoid the conversion to idolatry for the strength of the faith in their heart. The stories about these seven young men can be found in Syriac texts of Actus Sanctorum: Saints Life and Martyrdom. I just read the stories from Quran to entertain my lonely self and sad heart but I do aware about the other path stories though they don't circulate this anymore. My family is going through some tests from Allah. It is not new for ajnabis (alien) like us because we face this since we were born, chaotic families, challenging treatment from around, identity crisis, and etc. Sometimes it could make us very weak but we must not lose hope and trust in Allah. He tests us because He wanted to clean us our selves and purify our souls. That is His hidden Mercy in between tests.

Leaving behind Duniya

I think I must avoid nice food again. I read something regarding metabolism and physical growth but I had forgotten that my age now is not the age to grow anymore no matter how much I take, hahaha. It is harmful for me and does not belong to a slave like me. Let others enjoy the food. If I bought them next time I will just dump them in the lake for friends and brothers in the lake since I don't know to whom should I give. I am shy to brothers in musalla and feel not worthy to be their friends nor brother.

Closing

I must keep in my mind that I am waiting for the Resurrection like the brothers of the past in the cave. No need to worry about how I look like or whether I look like a skeleton. If my sisters say I am ugly and looking miserable then be it. I don't care anymore. I beg Allah my Lord to forgive everyone who does not know. I beg Allah forgiveness for being deceived for a moment while I should not forget that I am just a lowly slave. I would like to express my gratitude to brothers and sisters who are passing by for your prayers. May Allah bless all of you and express His Love on each of you.

Sealed with prayers for mercy, peace, and love, amin! 

Friday 9 March 2012

死論文期到

Assalaamu'alaikum wa rahmatullah


剛跟文佩學妹聊聊
妮娜姐研究生院那裡把死論給老師以四月二十三號
 耐心吧... 不是很久我們都做完吧

 祈禱為宇宙的平安繁榮與愛情, 阿敏!

Wednesday 7 March 2012

Useful Ways of Leading a Happy Life: Chapter 2

Assalaamu'alaikum wa rahmatullah


 Diary

Chapter two of this book deals with how to ward off anxieties and worries. I am experiencing all of these. I am sure dearly brothers and sisters are also experiencing this because we are all not perfect. Only Allah is Perfect. I had woke up late for night services for Him. I feel very sad, disappointed with myself, disgusted to look at my own face in the mirror and tortured because I had forgotten my position as His lowly slave. 

It happens because I lost the grip over my time since I am in an empty space and I am only depending on Allah without any brother (teacher) to guide me. After all, I also heard that my dad is driving to the north while he is not well because he feels bored and dull at home. Who says if we are married and having family we could be peaceful? I had seen many sorrows, physically and mentally tortured since I am a young child. I am sure others also experienced this but they don't share their stories widely to people because their situation might varies. Anything that other people do or experience does not apply to all people. Human also need friends and dad have lost all of his friends. When he was young, he used to mingle with his friends chatting and doing activities together. We can't easily develop friendship and friendship could easily end. 

Ya Allah... Your angels and other faithful brothers in my room are also witnessing me. I renew my declaration that You are the only True Friend of mine... You had befriend our patriarch Abraham a.s while he was alone and You also accompanied our beloved prophet Muhammad s.a.w while he was alone. I love You Lord, please forgive me I wake up late please don't leave alone, amin! 

I don't want to experience what my dad experienced. I feel so sad for him especially I can't accompany him to help guide him to see You in Your houses. Last few semesters I faced with few sorrows in the same time too which also includes my dad was affected by strokes until he's half paralyzed during Ramadan. I was so worried that I can't eat anything or drink anything. I threw out everything once I put something in my mouth. That's why I can't have my meals in front of brothers in my hostel. I don't want people to be affected and burdened because an unworthy creature like me :'( 

Chapter Two

It says among the means to wipe off anxieties due to nervousness and the preoccupation of the heart on sorrowful things is to keep ourselves busy with one activity that we like or another one is to seek knowledge. Why we keep ourselves busy? Because we want to distract our heart away from dwelling in anxieties. Activities like seeking the knowledge and knowing Allah will make us forget our grief and worry. As the result we will experience happiness and become cheerful again. This is actually something that we share with people of other faiths.

What makes us different from people of other faiths. A faithful Muslim will make intention to seek knowledge solely because to get Allah's pleasure. Whatever he does such as worldly acts which have good intention because of seeking the strength to worship Allah are due to his faith and sincerity only for Allah. This actually has an additional effect which wards off grief, worries, and anxieties through the Divine intervention. 

So many people today afflicted with permanent anxieties and sorrows. It comes the extent which makes him feeling very ill. The only cure is to forget the cause of sorrows and miseries. A person must make himself busy with normal activities. The activities which keep him busy should be something pleasing to himself. This will bring the person into his desired goal and all of knowledge only with Allah.

Among things to ward off worry and anxiety

1. Concentrate one's attention and concern only with present affairs.

2. Stop being anxious about future or grieving over the past.

3. Praying to Allah to protect one self from anxiety and grief (Bukhari n Muslim).

4. Anxiety and grief usually is a fear and concern over what will happen in the future. 
 A person should be the son of the moment.

5. Concentrate his energy and attention only for the betterment of the existing events and present moments.

6. Concentrate only the affairs of the moment is a necessary cause which leads to its accomplishment. 

Hope, Dependence to Allah and Working Hard

Prophet Muhammad s.a.w when he asks something from Allah, or when he guides the community at that time to ask specific things from Allah, he is advising them that prayers and supplication to Allah must be followed with hope in His favor. The same time, work hard and earnestly to achieve accomplishment of what had been asked or the removal of what had been asked to be removed from them.

The du'a to Allah should go side by side with action. A slave strives for what will benefit him in his Path and his worldly life. He asks his Lord to make him accomplish his need, and he seeks His help and intervention in that. 

Noble prophet Muhammad s.a.w said: "Strive for what will benefit you. Seek the help of Allah. Don't get incapacitated. If something afflicts you, don't say "if I had done such and such would have happened." But say: "This is the Decree of Allah. He does what He Wills". This is because "if" opens the act of the Devil". (Reported by Muslim) 

Our noble prophet Muhammad s.a.w advised us through this speech for us to join between two things:

I. Strive for useful things in all situations. 

Strive for the benefits of all situations. Seeking help of Allah and never surrender to incapacity as it is a harmful negligence.

II. Surrender to Allah the past events that have passed.

Witness in them the decree of Allah and His pre-destination.

Noble prophet Muhammad s.a.w has highlighted two categories of affairs: 

1. That a slave has ability to accomplish totally or partially, or those that can be completely avoided or at least lighten their burden. The slave should give his utmost effort and seek help of the Lord.

2. The affairs which the slave has no power over them. For this, the faithful slave must keep calm. Accept whatever come to him and surrender to Allah. This is a principle which complies with a definite mean to remove worry and grief beside achieving happiness.

Allah knows well... Finish this part and I had cried in front of the lappy until my chest get wet... Useless, hehehe.... :')

Sealed with prayers for mercy, peace, and love, amin! 

Tuesday 6 March 2012

Pakistani Muslim Scholar: Muhammad Tahir al-Qadri

Assalaamu'alaikum wa rahmatullah


Introduction

Just relaxing while waiting for afternoon prayer service time. Now, we talk about sub-Indian continent ulama and this one is from Qadiri mission order lineage. It is our heritage since some of our ancestors also hailed from here. We have several mission orders here whether in the Sunnah or the Shi'a ones. I am also cooperating and having contacts with some progressive Shi'a brothers. There are also people known by this mission in movements of Tabligh and Barelwi. So don't scratch each other faces but try to understand each other.

I can't really join our Tabligh Jama'at brothers or those from Wahhabi movements or any visible organizations. I did tried to combine myself into groups or visible mission orders but I feel like an out-caste and myself is very filthy when I listened to their speeches. We have to leave behind our customs. Say, if a Hebrew professing his faith to Allah and to the prophethood of Muhammad s.a.w. Do he or she has to leave behind all of her customs and traditions inherited from past prophets and messengers of the God while those traditions are actually mentioned in the Quran and Sunnah again through Muhammad s.a.w prophethood? 

Those in our masjid who used Sheikh Muhammad Abdul Wahhab kitabs are not all from religious schools and fields though they speak Arabic. I am aware about the basis of their religious science once I listened to their speeches because sometimes it is exceeding the limit of humility. We emphasize the basis of the Creed and also Shari'at which is the Path. We don't like to condemn people especially our brothers unless if we join them and look at their approaches. That is why I keep repeating about the first things of the Path in this site because some might think this site is the site of a grave worshiper, lol. I am not worshiping any grave, idols, human-being, demon, angel and I never worship any teacher anymore once I repented. Teachers are just examples especially for morality and the quest for knowledge. They are not gods like what I saw in fanatics attacking each other because others are not in accordance to their teachers (can I say their god?) opinions.

It does not mean that I won't help them or I hate them and encourage people to hate them. It is a sin to hate brothers and sisters in faith or anyone. I will certainly help them, but they must train their public members first before performing da'awat because not all of the public being preached are of the same level of knowledge regarding the Path. They should always revise their method of da'awat and checking whether for example they are performing the compassionate mercy equally to everyone which also includes the disabled, animals, plants, environment, and etc. As Muslims, we are taught to always be in the Middle Path on everything. We don't exceed the boundaries withing two lines: angelic and demonic. Because we are human-being. This is what I understood about our Path.     

I had already changing my school of jurisprudence from Shafi'ie to Salafi (Hanbali) one in order to be in compliance with our mission order and trying to learn from the scratch. Sheikh Muhammad bin Abdul Wahhab or Ibnu Taimiyah and etc are just among Hanbali school of jurisprudence scholars. They are not the creators of any new schools but fanatics developed movements from them and expounding their ideas for new-founded ideologies. These scholars are no gods, prophets, or messengers of the God but human-being who happened to be scholars. Everyone will become scholars if they are diligent to memorize the Quran, learning the Sunnah, practicing them in daily life and checking the basis of Shari'at with diligent teachers who are doing researches.

Biography of Sheikh Muhammad Tahir

His father is Farid ad-Din Qadri. His ancestors belong to Sial ethnic group who speaks in three languages which are Punjabi, Sindhi, and Saraiki. They hailed from Jhang close to Sargodha in Pakistan.

Early Education

It mentions that he started his education at Catholic mission school, Sacred Heart in Jhang. He was educated in English and exposed to Christianity at an early age. He was taught with Islamic sciences from the age 12 in Medina al-Munawwara in Saudi Arabia at the Madrasah al-'Ulum al-Shari'yya. It is situated on the site of Abu Ayyub al-Ansari house. It was the first place where prophet Muhammad s.a.w was offered to stay when he first reached the city of Medina. 

It reminds me of my dad stories about himself. He was also educated in Sacred Heart of Singapore under a Catholic brother supervision once he was kicked out of the village in Kodiang, Kedah after my grandpa passed away. Three of my elder sisters also began their education in Cantonese Catholic pre-formal school in Central Kedah. Some of my paternal cousins were also educated in Catholic church in Malacca where they also had to join Christian's prayer services though they weren't Christian. I was quite fortunate to begin my education in masjid system, haha.
      
His early teachers in Islamic sciences among them were:

1. Mawlana Dhiyaauddin al-Madani who died in 1981 at the age 107. 
2. Al-Hijaz Sayyid 'Alawi ibn Abbas Maliki al-Makki who taught hadith sciences.
3. Sayyid Muhammad bin Alawi Maliki al-Makki who was the foremost Sunnah authority in Mid East
4. Al-'Azam of Pakistan, Sardar Ahmad al-Qadri

He also learned from other prominent classical authorities in Islamic sciences such as from:

1. Abu Barakat Ahmad al-Qadri al-Alwari. He is one of hadith narrators of the Indian sub-continent. His dad is Didar 'Ali Shah al-Alwari who studied under Ahmad Ali Muhaddith Sharanpuri and Ahmed Raza Khan Baralwi. Sheikh Qadri studied under Abu Barakat for four years and received his ijazat in hadith and jurisprudence in 1972.

2. Abdul Rashid al-Ridwi. Sheikh Qadri completed the classical Darsi Nizami course with him from 1963 to 1970 at Jami'a Qutubiyya Ridwiyya in Jhang. Lessons were conducted from pre-dawn Tahajjud prater service at three early in the morning to eleven at night with pauses between noon and afternoon. Abdul Rashid only taught Sheikh Qadri alone without any other students. While attended an event for Sheikh Qadri, Abdul Rashid mentioned in his speech about Sheikh Qadri. He never miss his Tahajjud and optional services. He never absent to all of his lessons and never think to do that. He is a loyal student and is a qualified teacher too. He still maintains his humility wherever he is and Abdul Rashid prays for him to be successful in the order mission. 

3. Tahir 'Alauddin Qadri Gilani. This is a saint who become the spiritual guide of the Qadiriyya mission in 1996. He bestowed the ijazat and certification to Sheikh Qadri in hadith sciences. He started the Minhaj University and Minhaj al-Quran Institute.

4. Ahmad Zubaydi or Abu Hanifa Saghir of Syria. He is allegedly from the family of Imam Abu Hanifa. He reports that he personally heard Tahir Alauddin al-Gilani referred to Sheikh Tahir Qadri as the reviver of our Path. 

5. Abdul Ma'bud Jilani. This teacher studied under scholars such as Imdadullah Muhajir Makki, Ahmad Rida Khan, Qutbul Arifin Ali Sulayman ibn Mustafa an-Naqib al-Baghdadi, Abdul Rahman al-Mahd an-Naqib al-baghdadi, Shah Muhammad Sulayman Tonswi and Fazli Haq Khairabadi.

6. Fariduddin Qadri. The dad of Sheikh Qadri himself was a scholar. He studied from al-Hijaz, in Lucknow, Delhi, Hyderabad in India, Baghdad, Damascus and other places. He gained knowledge of sciences from scholars such as al-Haram al-Makka 'Alawi bin 'Abbad al-Maliki, Muhammad Abdul Shakur al-Muhajir al-Madani who had once studied in Darul Ulum of Deoband before leaving for Medina al-Munawwara. Fariduddin also studied under Abdul Hadi al-Ansari of Lucknow, Abdul Baqi Ali Muhammad al-Ansar al-Muhaddith, and many others because their name is so long, haha. Fariduddin taught Sheikh Qadri everyday from 1962-1970 and periodically from 1970-1974 about the principles of hadith, tafseer, aqeeda, tasawwuf, Arabic grammar, Arabic language styles, logic, philosophy, and Arabic literature as well as other traditional classical sciences. He gave Sheikh Qadri the Dawra al-Hadith to certify him in 1970.

7. Ahmad Sa'eed Kazmi. This guy was a famous authority of Pakistan and was known as the "Ghazali of his time." He was a close friend to Sheikh Qadri's dad. Sheikh Qadri was sent under his supervision at Jami'a Islamiyya Bahawalpur as well as in his own institution in Anwar al-'Ulum in Multan. The studies he acquired included hadith, aqeeda, the knowledge of kalam, and other classical sciences. Upon completion, he was awarded with the Sanadi Hadith in 1979.

8. Hussain ibn Ahmad Usayran. He was the last living student of the Lebanese authority, Yusuf ibn Ismail Nabhani. He gave Sheikh Qadri all of his ijazats in 2004, a year before he passed away. He gained knowledge from the topmost authority of sciences regarding hadith and jurisprudence from Middle East and North Africa.

9. Muhammad Fateh al-Kattani. This guy is a specialist of Hadith in Syria. He taught Sheikh Qadri in Damascus and gave him all his ijazats.

10. Burhan Ahmad Faruqi. He was a famous student of Zafar al-Hasan Uthmani and a student of Muhammad Sulayman Ashraf Aligarhi. He supervised Sheikh Qadri on the studies of philosophical reflection of Muhammad Iqbal and bestowed him all the certification (permission) to teach others.

Later Education

Sheikh Qadri studied law at University of Punjab in Lahore. He was graduated with an LLB in 1974 with a gold medal for academic achievements. After a period of legal practice as an advocate, he taught law in the University of Punjab from 1978-1983 and gained his PhD in Islamic Law majoring in Punishments in Islam, their Classification and Philosophy from the same university in 1986. His supervisor were Bashir Ahmad Siddiqui and Javaid Iqbal. He was appointed a professor of Law at Punjab University and taught British, US and Islamic constitutional law.

Career Life

Sheikh Qadri was appointed as a Jurist Consultant or Legal Adviser on Islamic Law for the Supreme Cpurt and the Federal Shari'ah Court of Pakistan. He worked also as a specialist adviser on Islamic curricula for the Federal Ministry of Education of Pakistan. At various times between 1983-1987, he received and declined offers for various high-level posts.       

He has delivered more than 6000 lectures on various fields such as on political-economy studies, religious philosophy, law, sufism, medical sciences, material sciences and astronomy. Numerous lectures are available in Arabic, English, and Urdu at Islamic bookshops around the world. Hurmm, I wanted to find them for my readings if I have time after this.

Sheikh Qadiri himself has awarded permission or ijazat to other leading Muslim scholars which makes them his students and linking them through his lineage mission order back to prophet Muhammad s.a.w and companions of the prophet s.a.w. It brings everyone into connection.

Closing

All of the stories we posted here are just for us to reflect upon ourselves based on real life experience. About the ulamas and scholars, example of their morality could help us to lead a noble life. This one is just for us to boost up our spirit to learn from good examples. This guy is not a god and for me. I never have a strict understanding about saints. Saints for me are my brothers and sisters whom I love so much. I am serving my beloved brothers and sisters for His pleasure as possible as I can. It is for us to struggle in pursuing our ambition. What is our ambition? To see His Glorious Appearance and to be close to Him, insha Allah :')

Sealed with prayers for mercy, peace, and love, amin!






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