What is Introvert All About?

Assalaamu'alaikum wa rahmatullah

I had touched about this matter in a post but I didn't get the space to talk about this yet since I was occupied. Yesterday, I accompanied second sister to her friend's wedding banquet in Seberang Perai. She only returns home North sometimes so when she returns home I also wanted to show her some places that I had earlier been especially in Penang Island. She said she wants to find some time next time just to go to spa and relax with her friends or alone, hehehe. I also suggested her to bring her friends to go through Penang Heritage Trails when they have time. Just imagine our selves like those Western travelers and travel, haha. 

We also went to Batu Feringghi and Tanjung Tokong which has a nice beautiful floating masjid. I haven't been to these part of island alone yet since it needs extra days to explore these parts. I love to explore places alone first and without any friend because I need to make sure the places are safe for friends and I can sleep anywhere without having to book any room or hotel. If anything happen to me would be ok since I am not important but if I burdened friends I would feel guilty my whole life.  

Introvert Advantage: How to Thrive into the Extrovert World

This one is from a site written by a screenwriter known as Carl. He talks about his discovery when reading a book known as the "Introvert Advantage: How to Thrive into the Extrovert World" which was written by Marti Laney. Marti Laney is an American Psychotherapist but I don't know how far she did researches about introversion. But since she had published a book, I guess maybe we could also check her works and other researches as well. I actually never realize that I am one of this group of introverts. We do know about the word used in English but we didn't really know about it as a psychological term, right???

Before this, I always thought that everyone is the same since I was taught by people around to be merciless to myself if I can't do what others can do. I did realize that my ability with others is different but I don't know how to defend myself. When I saw people who faced the same fate like me I always feel sympathy to them and wanted to help them too. Kedahans call those who can't do what others can do as tak menyekoh or tak bertokoh. Our society does not recognize difference in people ability so we tend to classify people with these kind of derogatory labels. Poeple however recognize difference in status based on those things that they view as special ability without really looking at necessities in which I found that I can't fit in and I don't know what kind of ability satisfies society needs or brings them to admiration. Even until now, I don't feel like I need any praises if I do anything or I found no reason to receive any sympathy from people for myself if being hit by misfortune.

Conflict within Myself or with Society?

When I was humiliated by teachers and schoolmates during my lower secondary schooling time, I felt that I should not be the same like them and I began to be serious with Buddhism practices that I had gradually seek and learned since I was 13 years old at temples. Well, I recited Trairattana on a glass of water. I imagined that I took the vows of precepts with Lord Buddha and recited all of them in Bali (not Balinese language of Indonesian island but Bali the ceremonial language of Theravada Buddhist rituals) and in Malay. I remember some of my offerings are some flour, sugar, candles, some white threads and I bought incense sticks which all of them represent specific meanings of Brahman traditions and Buddhist precepts. I began to collect Bali-Sanskarttam terms which I chain them to make montras like what I heard at temples when I was a student of the madrasah in Perlis. That's why I had notes and stuffs. I also made a will which I wrote in my notebook and I put in the box under my bed saying that if I died I wanted to be cremated like a Buddhist with Buddhism rituals. Only after I repent I dispose those notebooks. 

Owh yeah, I still remember at the time we also heard about Bamiyan Buddha bombardment by Taleban and again I viewed Muslims as barbaric savages and I hate people around more especially those who call themselves Muslims, hahaha. When Muslim friends talked about Bamiyan Buddha should be bombed I felt like I wanted to kick them and felt my heart aches. The Bamiyan Buddha was actually the image of Buddha of the past known as Dipangkar Buddha. It was not the image of Siddartha Gautama Buddha as what people always think. I would also advice brothers and sisters in faith and also Christian friends, don't lower estimate those people just because we see them as idolaters who bow down to golden idols. Sometimes, our intention wanted to make them as our brothers with love could also turn them to be our life-enemies if we do it without precautions and manners. 

When I was a Buddhist as an experience of this short life, I could still perform pujas without idols or images and it is roughly known as the highest pujas. I only used mudras and imagination of emptiness. I could not always perform darshan (watching) at the images since I lived with my family so I performed mudras. I almost forgotten some mudras because I didn't practice them for long since repentance but I still remember few names of the mudras or signs of the hand. I don't know how to explain this but it could be quite complicated to explain. I didn't believe in a God as Allah but I believed in Buddhas and Jinas (conquerors of desires) whom are all teachers. They are all my examples. I didn't really performed salat but I pretend like performing salat just to make sure that people won't suspect me and sending me to Muslim teachers because they might think I was possessed. I did those things while I was sane and I was aware about environment around. So, maybe this is called as Taqiyya by other fellow Sunnah Muslim brothers? Hehehe.  

Marti Laney Foundings

Carl mentioned that a section in Laney's book in page 71-75 maps out human brain and explains how neuro-transmitters follow different dominant paths in the nervous systems of Introverts and Extroverts. He said that if the theory of the psychologist is correct, then it turns our that introverts are people who are over sensitive to a chemical cell known as Dopamine. Too much external stimulation overdoses these introverts and exhausts them. 

On the other hand, extroverts can't get enough Dopamine. They require Adrenaline for their brains to create it. Extroverts also have a shorter pathway and less-blood flowing to the brain. The messages of an extrovert's nervous system mostly bypass the Broca's area in the frontal lobe which is where a large portion of contemplation takes place. The books says, only about 25% of people are introverts. There are even fewer with extreme cases. It leads to a lot of misunderstandings since society does not have very much experience with introverts. 

The site writer listed few misconceptions about introverts based on his own life experience and I also found that it mostly resembles mine. I would also list them down as what he wrote because I don't think I need to change anything.....

1. Introverts don't like to talk.

It's not true. Introverts just don't talk unless if they have something to say. They don't like small talk. Try getting an introvert and talking about something they are interested in, and they won't shut up for days. I think this is true because I am not really a talkative person but I am not also a cocky guy who stays alone all the time or always in silence. I talk only with few people or when I feel important. I talked with karkun Firdaws or karkun Husaimi last time because I saw that they were serious to perform the duty of our path but on the other side, I feel that I wasn't a worth person to talk to them or others. Sometimes I only use a person to spread some important message and the message is not only for one person but for others. Usually that messenger person is an important person in my view and I respect them : )

2. Introverts are shy  

Shyness has nothing to do with being an introvert. Introverts are not necessarily afraid of people. What they need is a reason to interact. They don't interact only to interact. If you wanted to talk to an introvert, just start talking. No worry about being polite. I think this writer is right in my case. I don't really feel afraid or shy to talk to people but I am afraid that I will violate few teachings and portraying evil example to others especially those who are "religious" which will cause me sin. But if people wanted to talk to me, I could be very flexible. I have friends who are not religious at all and we talk like other guys. We discussed and taught each other whatever we know about music, about movies, hairstyle, jeans, about favorite food, about girls, hilarious stuffs, about our differences in dialects or languages, talking nonsense just to laugh and others. I never talk like a preacher to these friends at all as I have a principle where I will never say anything regarding obedience if I do not perform it first. No such thing as hadith ini or hadith itu unless if they ask me or needs help regarding studies of hadith. Usually, I never ask people to follow me to masjid or do any religious activity because I consider it as between me and the Lord but if some friends are interested I would also feel happy and love to march with them while praying for them. 

3. Introverts are rude

Introverts often don't see a reason for beating around the bush with social pleasantries. They want everyone to just be real and honest. Unfortunately, this is not acceptable in most settings. So, introverts can feel a lot of pressure to fit in, which they find exhausting. Urmm, this one I do agree. For example if I am buying something and I am asking the price of certain stuffs during bargain session. It does not mean that I wanted to lower the price but I am actually testing the honesty of the trader. If they are honest, I will pay the price where he mentioned it at the first place and just go. Many people would not understand if I do like this but what matters for me is honesty and truth. The same thing like government adverts which says eat less sugar and etc. I don't mind if they just tell us, we are now facing some economic downturn so please try to save as possible as you can because ministers and their family also wanted to enjoy their life. Then, I would be happy to do so for them. Just don't lie with misleading reasons. I also will tell the truth if I think it is important but I don't know if people would also call me as a rude. If I don't like to talk or listen about something, I would just keep my silence and just slowly slip away.     

4. Introverts don't like people

On the contrary, introverts intensely value the few friends that they have. They can count their close friends on one hand. If one is lucky enough for an introvert to consider as a friend, he is probably have a loyal ally for life. Once a person earned their respect as a person of substance, then he is in. This is true in my case. I don't really make a lot of friends but I have few friends. They are all matters and I don't care what is their religion or faith. Sometimes I would also defend them and also being counted as an infidel by other Muslims even until now, hahaha. I talk to a person who first talk to me. That person will be counted as a close friend or even a blood brother though not really related by blood. 

I am not close to my relatives and my relatives from both side live in scattered places. Some of my dad's relatives live abroad and I don't even know them. They are of foreign stock. My mum's relatives especially related to her siblings are also not close to me and I think they are cocky, narrow-minded, lower-estimating others and love to show off about their religious status though they just live in kampungs. I am just a son in my family and just have my sisters. I am not also really close to some of my sisters because they don't really understand me. I had to find out everything by experience and looking around. My real close friend last time was lord Buddha and his teachings. I even thought that I would be a monk retiring or die in temple one day but the result is now I am returning to ancestral path, hahaha.       

5. Introverts don't like to go out public

Nonsense. Introverts just don’t like to go out in public FOR AS LONG. They also like to avoid the complications that are involved in public activities. They take in data and experiences very quickly, and as a result, don’t need to be there for long to “get it.” They’re ready to go home, recharge, and process it all. In fact, recharging is absolutely crucial for Introverts. Also true.... One of my colleague last time, Amir was also like this. I guess that is why I was close to him. We don't like group discussions and usually we would end up checking everything through messenger but last time we also make great accomplishment in one of our presentation during undergraduate. We just did everything through the net while two other members of the group were not functioning. However, we included both of them as our group members and they also get the grades. No big deal.

Introverts always want to be alone

Introverts are perfectly comfortable with their own thoughts. They think a lot. They daydream. They like to have problems to work on, puzzles to solve. But they can also get incredibly lonely if they don't have anyone to share their discoveries with. They crave and authentic and sincere connection with one person at time. Urmmmmm, this is so right!!! This guy also experienced the same thing and it's quite surprising, hahahaha. Sometimes I feel not comfortable to talk with many people because we don't know if they could understand what we are talking about. I am always sincere with my friends I don't really have many friends, haha. My last time friends some of them had gone to no where. When I was a school kid too, I didn't really make friend with people around. I made friends with migrant workers from Pakistan and we always went to pray Juma'at service before I became a Buddhist but later they moved and I became extremely lonely. My dad didn't like the Patthans and he said I will be influenced to be an idiot like them, hehehe. One of the friend was Aftab, I guess that was his name, hahaha. Dad didn't have problems with Punjabis or other fellow Sub-Indian continent ethnics except the Patthans.

7. Introverts are weird

Introverts are often individualists. They don't follow the crowd. They'd prefer to be valued for their novel ways of living. They think for themselves and because of that, they often challenge the norm. They don't make most decisions based on what is popular or trendy. Yea, I don't like to follow trend. Even if people look at me as an ugly guy, surely I feel sad but I would never change my style for that. I chose to seriously be a Buddhist last time because of this too. I don't find any couple, girlfriend, or even trying to ask anyone for marriage because of this. I indeed hate those people who use scripture verses and hadiths to sound like they are the most obedient people while they don't know what are the significance of their deeds. People might not understand us but what can we do.

Introverts are aloof nerds

Introverts are people who primarily look inward. They pay close attention to their thoughts and emotions. It's not that they are incapable to pay attention on what is going on around them, it's just their inner world is much more stimulating and rewarding to them. Na'ah, I am not a nerd I know that. I don't really like to read books but I get everything because I just listen to things. I do memorize but not like others doing it by just looking at the books. I memorize while practicing. Supposed that if I am a nerd, I would be a computer science student or those who work with numbers, hahahaha. Sorry those who study computer science out there. Didn't mean to be rude. 

9. Introverts don't know how to relax and have fun

Introverts typically relax at home or in nature. Not in busy public places. Introverts are not thrill seekers and adrenaline junkies. If there is too much talking and noise going on, they shut down. Their brains are too sensitive to neurotransmitter called Dopamine. Introverts and extroverts have different dominant neuro-pathways. Just perfectly describing me but I love to travel alone. Maybe with a friend but not with many friends because I am afraid I would scare people. I don't like many people to know me. I don't mind hiking in the forest or meditating in the forest alone. I love nature. My science subject tendencies when I was a school kid was more to biology (botanical) and I know many things about Hindu traditional herbs but I think I can't suit modern kind of studies with research theories and everything. I didn't have the chance to study I wanted too because our education system was quite tight. I love to practice and try it on myself. Even until now I still practice them including burning weeds with ghee in my room. It's not for any sacrifice but only to scare away some insects without killing them. I guess one could understand why Muslim da'ies also sent their students to Indian sub-continent. It was once the land of philosophy and it is still like it was. Human experience mingles there with the environment. For now, I don't believe school or university as good institutions to make a human. For me they are just factories to produce literate labors or robots.            

10. Introverts can fix themselves and become extroverts

A world without introverts would be a world with few scientists, musicians, poets, artists, filmmakers, doctors, mathematicians, writers and philosophers. That being said, there are still plenty of techniques an extrovert can learn in order to interact with introverts. Writer of the side said, he reversed the two terms on purpose as to show people how biased our society is. Introverts cannot "fix themselves" and they deserve respect for their natural temperament and contributions to human society. In fact a study (Silverman, 1986) showed that the percentage of introverts increases with IQ. He said, people could not escape introverts and cannot change them as it will lead to their demise. I can be terribly destructive for an introvert to deny themselves in order to get along in an extrovert dominant world. Like other minorities, introverts may end up hating themselves and others because of the differences. If people think that they are introverts, they are recommended to search the topic and seek out other introverts to compare notes. The burden is not entirely to try and become "normal". Extroverts need to recognize and respect introverts. That will also make introverts respect themselves. Urmmm, I think I can't really respect myself since it is not easy for society to change. It means that I will have to have low-self esteem to the end of the world. We need to learn to be others and later being labeled with terms like Taqiyya :'( 

So, this is about two terms, introvert and extrovert. We learned these in classes to signify a person who is shy or who is not shy but we are not so sure that it is also terms used in psychological studies. Hope this helps...

Adapted from Carl Kingdom

Sealed with prayers for mercy, peace, and love, amin!            

First Chapter Need Changes

Assalaamu'alaikum wa rahmatullah

Hurrrm, this morning I had just met my supervisor, Dr. Noraida. She said that nothing much changed in the first part. I should repair the first part and put everything that they said in the introduction part. Actually, the more I look at the thesis the more I feel confused because everyday I just wandering in front of the computer looking at the thesis and checking what should I do. I had done the proposal for the thesis many times since last semesters and each time it should be amended according to different lecturers who advised us on research methodologies. I don't like to sit at the computer.  

How do I feel jah? Urmmm just feel like I wanted to cry. I would sincerely admit... I feel like I wanted to cry in the bus while returning to my room. If I am a woman I guess I would just cry in  front of people, hahahahahaha. So, being both man and woman actually is not easy. We have our own differences and problems in life. I feel my neck being tied with unnecessary ropes. I actually had made vow to study religious sciences and returning to my responsibility but this world is pushing me aside the way. I send text messages also to wrong people, so humiliating. It's because I feel so annoyed and my head think about many things. Sometimes I also feel like wanted to retreat, chap ye (tidy up things), return home, finding a job with my first degree certificate again and when I free just meditate in masjids or traveling around to perform da'awa on myself. If I saved enough money, I wanted to to go to some countries in Middle East or South Asia and stay there waiting for my "time" to come. Sometimes I'm quite pessimistic with future, lol. And sometimes I could only see darkness where I see myself in shroud cloth down the ground... 

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Guidelines and Comments Today

What did she advise me to do?

Background Part

On the background or introduction part it should be a brief one. It must be from general to specific introduction of the issue. I didn't change much in this part and it seems like the same with the previous one that I did. It's actually my fault, I didn't put the record in orderly manner. I have piles of paper here and it's all over the places. I told so at the supervisor but she thought that I tried to blame her, hahaha. For example, if I wanted to choose immigration policy, what is the relationship of UK in position of immigration and Muslim issue in UK? The program is about European Union so it must be related to the Union and not about a specific member state of the Union. If we talk about this Union everything must be about policy, politics, administration, legal system and guidelines from the treaties agreed by European Union member states.

Problem Statement Part

I should emphasize on issue chosen to be studied. Whether it is within the context of the policy, how to connect the problem of the immigration issue with the study of muslims in Europe with the UK as the case study? In problem statement, I should question myself, what is the reason to study? If it is about Muslim migrants, what are the reason behind this? What is the problem regarding Muslim migrants in the UK? The problem here is that whether the third and second generation of Muslim migrants are considered as migrants?

On the other hand, I had also put in the study about the notion of multiculturalism. I need to differentiate the study. Whether it is about the current population of Muslim in UK or about Muslim migrants? If I choose this type of social study, I need to make up my mind and choose because it makes my study obscure. When I change this, I must also change the objective as well as research questions.

Research Methodology

The term manipulation of data is not a suitable term to describe a method used in a research. It is more to a process. It is not an explanation of the method used. If I am going to do historical research for example, what are the methods? Try to read something about this in order to get some ideas.   

Sources

Where should I get my data sources? It means that what types of data that I am going to use for the research? In term of type of data sources, whether it is narrative types or people's opinion or academic theories? 

Are the data came from the reports, debates, or narratives of famous figures? Those things on where to access the data such as from internet searching could be described in brief.

Justify also why I need to use secondary data? How will it provides result to my objective and inquiry? 

Process in Analyzing Data

How about this process? How to sort them out? Qualitative process of analyzing the data? How to classify them into categories? How they are related and why they are related?

Significance of the Study

It must be totally changed according to what I choose in the background or introduction part. 

Another Comment

I took it too long and still came out with the same mistake. My sincere comment on this, I just feel lost when I look at this study. The more we dwell in it, the more it confuse us. That's why I love Quranic studies compared to these kind of things. Because I am familiar with it compared to these thesis mesis political science studies nih. Then the dateline for me to resend it to supervisor is at 23rd of December 2011. I need to check the calender as well to make sure that I am alert. She had earlier mentioned that I should see her by 9th December so I would take this as earlier alert for me.   

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I don't blame the supervisor at all on this matter and I think it is wrong to blame anyone! I guess it is better to comply within the guidelines and comments given. She had been generous enough in enlightening me with the guidelines and repeating them again. 

I had also talked with my colleague, Wenpei. She also has the same problem. We had also avoided our colleagues like Siva because we do not want them to know what happened to us. Further, what can they do to help us other than just discuss it and later we still have to deal it with ourselves? Yesterday, Wenpei also sent me messages saying that she's so disturbed with the study and classes. Frankly we think that we're not suitable to study European studies and I don't really like this studies on policies and administration either because it is so complicated and I think I should earlier change to research mode of Social Development, Asian Studies or doing MBA because MBA needs no research but it's too late to be sorry. We are reading on something which does not represent us but representing others and we have to follow their (Europeans) head and not our own head. I read many traditional administration system sources as well like Hindu-Buddhism system of administration (half-feudal system of traditional court) but it's not difficult like modern European ones because they work with values which we could understand here though I am a Muslim.  

I just said to miss Wenpei yesterday next week she better go for Guanyin temple and pray or chanting Heart Sutra if she feels so annoyed. I also tried to meditate and trying chanting dzikr remembering Allah but when we are nervous it is very difficult to regain tranquility. Ya Allah, guide me how should I encounter these? I feel like throwing out blood when I look at those stuffs for this research. We also have to encounter this repeating class : (

Sealed with prayers for mercy, peace, and love, amin!

Master Thesis: First Chapter Sent

Assalaamu'alaikum wa rahmatullah

Quite relieved after I had sent the file which consists my first chapter of the research. About what will happen in the next, I don't care. I just care that a burden had been lifted. First of all, I thank You, my Lord. Although, I am an evil unworthy creature but You still are Merciful and helping me while I am alone without anyone to help me with advise. 

It feels different when we are doing our further degree because we tend to be more different from others. We have to do everything on our own and once a while consulting supervisors. Luckily Azren had helped me a lot with contacts in Women Development Research Center where my supervisor is also a vice director in the center. I must thank Azren and wishing him luck too. I can't mingle around with degree students anymore perhaps because of the level of thought had shifted to be different. I think it's not because I am unfriendly as I can be very very friendly. 

My third sister called me yesterday telling me that she's interested to further into a master degree. Guess what? I'll be the victim again to supervise her beside her lecturers and supervisor. Hurmm, let's see if I wanted to burden my head with unnecessary things again. 

Here are some documents that I have in order to finish my first chapter. I still need to do some data analyzing and dividing the research into chapters and by plan it should be finished around March 2011. I had been talking to my colleague which is miss Wenpei in the class where both of us stuck in, we are so unfortunate and having to pay the sentence. Each time we received email, calls, or messages related to the studies and research center, we would feel nauseated and feeling like being punched at the stomach.

Urmm, these are documents that I used while browsing here and there, typing up and down contents of the research for the first chapter...

These are 'some' proposals which had been rejected. I had worked hard for each proposal and consulting many lecturers even those from outside of my course, no kidding. Each time being rejected, I felt my heart broken and wanted to burst out of tear because I thought that I had done thing recklessly. It also affects worship to Him. I feel sad more. Of course I never show my sadness to people and I always trying to hide my sadness. Sometimes it might also appear at my face and I would try to avoid people I know to make sure they won't be affected.

The first book given to us by a Singaporean representative of the European Union, I can't remember his last name. He's a Singaporean Chinese who had been awarded with European citizenship. He said he's a Belgique, lol. I am not crazed to be an European at all and that makes me laugh in my heart when a fellow Asian calling themselves according to European nation-state identification. I wanted to be a Bhutanese or a Himalayan. Wish everyone happy with whatever they like, haha.

These are borrowed from library. One is about racism studies and one is about multiculturalism in few countries for example Australia, Britain, and Malaysia.

I hate looking at books piled together, it makes me dole on which one should I read first : (

Recording the document. We must be neat with whatever sources that we have. Muslims should also study about Western thought and we should not just talk about the danger of this matter or that matter without checking them through academic light isn't it? We need to move with our journals and "studies" about how stinky is Western civilization too, just like they demonize everyone in this world, let see how they feel when people look down on them with false accusations and generalizations, hahaha... Jahat...

The problem with academic journals written by western scholars is that, they use boastful words and concepts yang entah apa-apa so we need dictionaries and thesaurus. Thesaurus is also useful for everyone to substitute words which had been repeatedly used by other writers so our works will be looking like a new one although most of them are just quotes in the literature review. This is how social studies students write thesis. Sometimes we have problem with Malay so we use Chinese dictionary too. We have to translate some portion into the language. I don't know how Science stream students study, I think they are more clever, intelligent and smarter than us. 

My cousin brother is getting married today where he is doing the 'aqad an-nikah (contract for marriage) in Jitra. I don't want to be there and it's not because I am envious of him getting married at the same age as me. I hate questions from "relatives" about when would I be a married man. I have many things to do rather than entertaining those questions of makcik makcik or pakcik pakcik. I don't even think of marriage nor having a family and I don't have any girlfriend because my job is to serve Him not to play around. When my job is finished I have no significance on the earth, then I should see Him. I also think about Resurrection and now I am living in the period near doomsday. So, I don't care about having children to inherit me or not. My vow is to follow the commandment of the God, and making everyone who made soul vow with Him around me doing the same. I am not living to fulfill any desire or to have pleasure. I am just living because I obey Him. If not because of His order, I won't be a living creature. I wanted to be just wind or soil or anything which people don't have to see me. If people wanted to get married, go on. I support everyone. Just don't bother me. I am not doing anything because I follow anyone, traditions or anything blindly. I am not that kind of person. Even last time when people forced me to study Islamic studies, I myself pulled myself out by diverting to Buddhism and its practice.

Arghh, I feel like I wanted to fly down from the mountain or retreat into the forest. My soul is like being held at my chest while it doesn't want to be strangled there. I just want to see the God : ( Sometimes, I am also listening to Kunga Puntchok while i feel tensed. He's a Tibetan singer who sings about motherland but I don't speak nor understand Tibetan, hahaha. People in exile are always like that. I also think he has a nice hairstyle and last time I tried to do my hair just like his hair but my hair is not of Oriental style, its more to Indian curly style : ( 

Tomorrow, I have to check the tooth at the clinic at 9:00 a.m sharp! On 14th of November, we have mid-semester examination for that stuck paper.

Sealed with prayers for mercy, peace, and love, amin!

Our Thesis Follow Up: Multiculturalism Germany Example

Assalaamu'alaikum wa rahmatullah

 Our pride, Europe

This is actually the topic that I had chosen for my thesis, not really specific but this is the issue. I don't know why it slipped out of my mind when we were in research methodologies class and proposing this for my thesis last semesters. They said that this topic must find any loophole in other researches if I wanted to go on with it since this topic perhaps already being discussed in other places. Isn't mini-thesis means that we also try to understand certain things and not only finding loopholes of other researches? I do not know what to study for the EU as they said that the EU is actually the most 'magnificent' invention of human in Europe over the century. Dok perasan tang tu jah la hangpa, noh...When we talk about multiculturalism, it must be related to Muslim communities within Europe and most of them are Third National Country nationals or migrants. Either they worked in labor sectors or running their own business. And some of them were nationals of European Union member states' colonies such as from Algeria, India, Pakistan, Bangladesh, Morocco and others.

In the case of Britain, I just don't understand because they were our colonizer in certain states and protector empire for few states during their glorious of the so-called the "Great Britain" period. And the fact that they ran away like chickens after being attacked by the Japanese around 1941 make me feel not attracted to Britain or European at all. They had bombed several places in 'scorched earth operation' and killed Indian migrant workers in the estates before they left and make people lived in misery with their selfishness as when Imperial Japanese Army came, those sources of industries were already bombed. People who conquer and plunder others are just the same terrorists and now they are finding many ways to put the insult to Allah (the God) Who is the Merciful Lord of the universe who never have to conquer the universe because the Dominion is with Him. Just because last time media did not published widely that they were terrorists and thieves, does not mean that people are stupid. And the notions like natives were lazy ass, uncivilized, and others should never being the reason for people to plunder others and being thieves. Beware of language of diplomacy, rules, regulation, and legislation brethren. Those 'snakes' in the West are good at it and look at how they did to Pulau Pinang. This is not to teach enmity but we have to be careful with 'snakes' who thinks that they are so 'civilized' from the first world. To be recognized by the first world standard, we have to be thieves, terrorists, and colonizers... rupanya : )

Now back to the topic, when talking about multiculturalism, Britain was the one who proposed us to be a multicultural 'new' nation after they were 'forced' to release their colonies abroad. Our Sultanate of Kedah (1136-now) was also "forced" to be apart of "Malayan Union" (1946-1948) while we should have our own sovereignty over our own territory, and our people had fought two great Empires of the Northern mainland who were the Siam and the Burma to maintain our sovereignty and freedom whether in term of diplomacy or in term of warfare. That is why we are so proud of our state and sultanate no matter if we are Kedahan Malay, Kedahan Hybrid Arabs, Kedahan Arabs, Kedahan Chinese, Kedahan Siamese, Kedahan Indians, Muslims or Buddhists. For me, I don't care about Europe nor Caucasoid faces their poops are just as stinky as others. Our modest state is enough and more beautiful than Europe. We don't have to be the same like others to be accepted nor being economically advanced like those European countries terhegeh-hegeh to be accepted within the European Union. We have the God to help us with our standard and in exam I can't write like this. Takut some lecturers sentap because in 'academic' the God must be left out and forgotten... hahaha. I can't forget Allah (the God). He is my Protector and the One who Shield me from ignorance. 

Later the "Malayan Union" was changed to the Federation of Malayan Peninsula (1948-1963) under Centralized-Federalism system where we have to nod our head to the Federated States and Federal Constitution who were earlier apart of British Malaya and with the inclusion of Northern Borneo States, we are now known as Malaysia since 1963. Now comes to question whether Malaysia was colonized or not by Prof. Zainal Kling? Where is 1957, the 31st of August where Tunku Abdul Rahman, Tun Sambanthan the Ceylonese, and Tun Tan Cheng Lock the Baba Malacca together harmoniously kissing Her Highness Queen's knees for independence as it could not be 'postponed' anymore??? I had watched the video tape from our video archives during our transcription class session while I was a first degree student. Basically I know what Tunku Abdul Rahman talked about. 

You, politicians may deceive my mum or dad or my grandparents. Maybe they had forgotten or perhaps being manipulated but I am not an easy target for mind manipulation. I don't just follow people but I made researches and questions. That's why in certain part of my life, I was a Buddhist and I don't simply becoming a Muslim now because I follow my ancestral religion or customs, popularity or simply because I wanted to be recognized by my religion status. I made up my mind to choose Islam before formally saying the faith proclamation again asking the God and angels to be my witness and performing penance during circumambulation of Ka'abah during Hajj. It is not easy since I actually had previously having this thought to run away from my house and being a monk, joining Sangha society in monastery. When I failed exams and can't befit in society, I tried to take my own life. What for if we just being known to certain religion status and then we do not practice the religion nor fear the God. We must do everything only for the God not for ourselves nor for other things : ) I don't feel any hatred to Christians nor Jews at all. If they sincerely love Jesus Christ, go on... If they sincerely love Ha-Shem (the Name), go on... They have my support. If they just using religion for the sake of this hideous world and enmity, I pray for anathematization of the God on everyone. Our Lord is the same God, just the matter of concept if it becomes different : )    

From videos posted by Europeans or perhaps European wannabes who knows, it says that Multiculturalism is totally failed and not partly failed. There are some excerpts of speeches by Angela Merkel, David Cameron and Sarkozy. In her speech regarding multikulti concept where people could live side-by-side did not work. She said that immigrants need to integrate more and learn German. Does it mean that they have to leave their religion, their faith, values within their ancestral lineage other than languages and culture to comply within racist Germans? When the French came by to Asia, they said that people in Asia must follow their culture. When British officials entered Burmese palace, they had refused to take off their shoes and bowing to the king respecting local customs and tradition. Everybody must follow their values, but they refused to follow others' values even when they are in others' territory. What kind of human are they? This earth is the belonging of the God, not of anyone's dad and the God is not like European human dad. 

There are also comments that I read regarding Islam is not a race, so it is not wrong to hate Islam by irresponsible racists and I guess they must have failed their school that make them working in low-class stores and lamenting their life for their intelligence. Islam is not a race is true. But those who profess Islam as their Path are nations. We are of different nations. Muslim nations are those who profess Islam no matter they are black, white, yellow, caucasoid, or mongoloid. In Britain, those Muslims in majority there are Pakistanis, Bangladeshis and Indians of South Asia continent. In France, those Muslims are from North Africa and perhaps some are Arabic speaking Muslims from Middle East. In Germany, those Muslims are in majority Turkish speaking people. In Caucasus, they are White and Mongol Muslims. In Africa, they are African Muslims. Beside being Muslims, they have their own values, customs which predates their reversion to the Path and thoughts too as Islam is not a rigid religion. Even in Malaysia, we have Muslims by ancestral lineage since few centuries ago. They are our  Malay compatriots and they think of Islam like Europeans think of Christianity, as customs and not about spirituality and sincere devotion to the God anymore. It is for political survival and bringing people into disunity for the sake of politicians or party interests.  

Merkel further said in a gathering of younger members of her conservative Christian Democratic Union (CDU) party that at "the beginning of the 60s, Germany called the foreign workers to come into Germany and now those migrant workers live in the country. Germans had ridiculed ourselves for a while and think that they won't stay but will be gone after the development is done but it is not reality. Multicultural society and to live side by side and to enjoy each other... has failed, utterly failed." 

Now my comment, why do you people called these foreign workers to work in your magnificent countries and territories? Why don't you just build up your own country with European and German low-class workers? This is also a lesson to our country and people in our country could also see this and don't just blame foreign workers. Look at how politicians did to the country and later we scratched each other faces and treating others like sub-humans.

However, in her speech in Potsdam, the chancellor made clear that immigrants were welcomed in Germany. She specifically referred to recent comments by German President, Christian Wulff. Christian Wulff said that "Islam was part of Germany," like Christianity and Judaism. In her response to this speech, Merkel said: "We should not be a country either which gives the impression to the outside world that those who don't speak German immediately or who were not raised speaking German are not welcomed here."

According to Stephen Evans analysis for BBC News in Berlin, he said that Angela Merkel took pains to say immigrants are welcomed. The words "utterly failed" are very strong, but there lies some nuanced messages about the need for immigrants in a country who needs skilled labor. She's pitching it very carefully with important elections coming up in the spring according to BBC News report on 17 October 2010. According to this analysis, it is important to check the tone of the speech and from this analysis it says that the chancellor basically saying that Germany needs immigrants but immigrants need to do something to get into the society. 

I had also read news about the late Marwa el-Sherbini being stabbed to death by a racist German settler who came from Russia. May Allah bless her soul and protect her son. Is el-Sherbini a low class labor? I thought that her level of education is higher than of the psycho-stabber murderer. I am sorry, Europeans. I don't mean to look down on you people in general but some of you people have arrogant attitude which made me feel nauseated because those level of higher civilization is not according to your standard for me. The level of civilization lies at the God and morality teachings. Europe is no different to Nigeria or Afghanistan who bombs Bamiyan sandstone statue of Dipangkara Buddha. I mean it is in term of mentality when I look at those politician supporters. I was so outraged too last time because of Taleban had bombed the statue of one of my teacher and each time some Muslims compatriot talked about this issue I felt like I wanted to kick their ass and I was so pissed off. This is before my repentance to the Path of Abraham a.s. Dipangkara Buddha was the previous Buddha before Buddha Gautama and before Dipangkara, there was Saranangkara Buddha.   

Lets look at Gert Wildeers (his hairstyle and hair color is so ugly) response over Merkel speech regarding Multiculturalism issue... He mentioned that: "Mrs Merkel said that the Multiculturalism societies has completely failed. Not 'partly failed' but 'completely failed' and it sure means something when she says that! The most important politician, a Christian Democrat in Europe's most important country. Germany breaks the taboo and tells it as it is. She states what millions of people think. Statements for which you would stand trial in the Netherlands are uttered freely by the leading Christian Democrats in Germany. Where they are now taking the lead when it comes to criticism of Islam! I would like to take the time to address Mrs Merkel by saying, Mrs Merkel, you are right when it comes to multicultural society! Mr. Chairman, there is a hope. The political landscape is changing everywhere in Europe. Nothing can stop it!"  

While for Britain, we have David Cameron speech: "We adopted state-multiculturalism, we encouraged different cultures to live separate life apart from each other and apart from the mainstream. We failed to provide the vision of society to which they wanted to belong. We have even tolerated this segregated communities behaving in ways which runs completely counter to our value." 

Now my questions, what is British value? How does value being defined in Britain and in Europe? Should practical Muslims in Europe be like Christians who ridicule Jesus Christ and his noble mother, Maryam al-'Adzraa (Mary the Virgin)? Separating Divine way from their life in term of secularism or joining night bars and being drunk idiots who crashed cars during Sunday nights? Or is it the fear that they are not patriotic to their country such as Britain?  Fear of bombings? How should Britain do in order to curb this? Is it by being cowards or by patronizing Islamic teachings and providing trainings for Islamic religious teachers who came from abroad within local British framework?

In Asia, we are different from you people in Europe. Our sultanate was previously a Hindu kingdom with Hindu-Buddhism values. Even I am a descendent of migrant people who came by 300 years ago still could receive the impact of older values of the land and neighboring lands. The sultanate had accepted the teaching of Islam around 10th century and the king himself together with royal family had patronized the propagation of His Words and Divine Way of life across his country. We descendents of migrant people are the most loyal people toward our sultanate and we love our native brothers and sisters. We love our language which is Kedah Malay and we worked hard to preserve Kedah Malay within Islamic values. I am also encouraging other Muslim nations to preserve their culture and customs through Divine Islamic framework. We do not need secularism here to be united but we have the God as the One who unite us. Many of hybrid Arabs whom fathers were Arabs and mothers were local women or of other ethnicity had fought the Siam empire in order to protect the kingdom from being absorbed into the empire. The villages opened around Alor Setar capital of our sultanate and state some of them were villages of Arabs under royal decree and I had made few checks with museums, elders and the people around. Nevertheless we could still survive in form of a state in a new country though we are controlled by centralized-federalism. Even in term of special privileges of natives, we do not really take it though we are eligible according to our state law. We passed it to beloved native brothers and sisters and even non-peninsular people from other neighboring country like Indonesia are treated even better than us in our own country. Why should we be envious to people when we are lazy like spoiled European youths who only thinks of fun in this short life?

There are some debates about immigration regarding this issue of Multiculturalism. Correspondents said that Merkel faces pressure from within Christian Democrat and its allies to take a tougher stance and require immigrants to do more to adapt to German society. How could I apply this to my thesis regarding Britain? Maybe I should also see how the debate goes on with David Cameron and other anti-immigration groups in Britain. 

Horst Seehofer, the leader of the CDU Bavarian sister party, the CSU said that: "It was obvious that immigrants from different cultures like Turkey and Arab countries, all in all, find it harder to integrate. Multikulti is dead." 

The chancellor held talks with Turkish Prime Minister around October 2010, Mr. Erdogan in which these leaders pledged to do more to improve the often poor integration record of Germany's estimated 2.5 million strong Turkish community. The debate first was heated up in August of 2010 when Thilo Sarrazin, a senior official at Germany's Central Bank said that: "No immigrant group other than Muslims is so strongly connected with claims on the welfare state and crime." Sarrazin has since resigned. His name is also Sarrazin (Saracen)... Such recent strong anti-immigration feelings from mainstream politicians came amid an anger in Germany about high unemployment, even if the economy is growing faster than those of its rivals. This is what correspondent said in their opinion. There is also seems to be a new strident tone in the country, perhaps leading to less reticence about no-go-areas of the past.   

Sealed with prayers for mercy, peace, and love, amin!